I don't know how to start this post. I've typed something and deleted it about 4 times now. This may be the 5th time, or maybe not.

Fell ill in school yesterday and got a medical certificate from the doctor for school today. I swear, yesterday was probably one of the worst days of my life. Feeling like death is not cool, especially not cool when you're Secondary 4. My brain is not functioning well so the things I type here might not make sense but just bear with it. My brain is on shut down mode and I feel like sleeping but I really don't want to because I've been sleeping too much I feel like a pig.

Listening to Architects' new album streaming on Myspace. It's pure gold, Architects are blowing everybody's mind away. I'm not sure if I have mentioned this but I'm going to pre-order The Here And Now this weekend, mega excitement!! Sam Carter's voice is oh my god fuiwhgiufgiwuifh perfection <3 Love for Architects <3 <3

I feel guilty for staying home today but I guess God is just telling me that I need some rest. I'm still trying to strike a balance between studying consistently and relaxing but things aren't really working ideally and I've been feeling so demoralised recently. It seems like I'm not studying enough but I've been studying but I don't feel like accomplished or anything. Did that make sense? Don't think so but whatever. I find that I have so much free time even after studying and doing my homework and it makes me feel as if I haven't been using my time wisely or I've been just rushing through everything. I don't know what I'm doing with my life.

Love as you want to be loved

And live the way that you know you should

Keep the good ones by your side

You never know when they might fly up and away