Currently having this and Don't Turn Off The Lights Now on repeat with this stupidly huge grin plastered on my face. I think I might actually tear a little because it's been a while since I've heard anything from them or seen them perform or anything. Nick Carter can always come to me any day plz lol. Haven't had the slightest idea that Backstreet Boys were active again until I heard their collaboration with New Kids On The Block on the radio the other day. This literally made my day, I'm actually so genuinely happy that they are doing stuff again and I can't wait for their collaboration album to come up because I'm going to buy it as much as I don't actually listen to  NKOTB. Well, apparently they're having a tour of the US under the collab name of NKOTBSB, which I think is pretty cool. BSB need to come back the Singapore soon because the last time was just magical. I love the Backstreet Boys and I will always love them. They are actually a good boy band unlike this one boy band I happened to have chanced across the other day on MTV. I think they're called Big Time Rush? Either way, they are horrible. I literally felt like smashing my TV in half and I was appalled at their dance moves and the whole video and just like eugh, go Youtube it and you'll understand me. Seriously, it just really shames all the wonderful boy bands that came before them.

Currently in quite a queer mood yet not so queer mood? I have quite a lot of thoughts floating in my mind and I might or might not blog about them depending on if I actually have time seeing as its 11.39PM and I have to sort the music in my iPod out seeing as I have no more space on it but I have so much new songs to load in. I can't decide what to delete even though I don't listen to half the things I have on it. It just gives me comfort to know that it's in there if I ever want to listen to it. Spending a portion of my holiday tomorrow with my wonderful best friend. I'm so excited to see her seeing as I haven't seen her in ages and I just hope we have a wonderful time and just talk about stuff we always talk about and yeah.

Someone in my cell actually planned something and asked everyone out too and for a moment I was caught between deciding to go out with my cell mates and hanging out with my best friend. My cell is not really what everyone would typically call a 'functional' cell. At least from my point of view, we all seem to be so disconnected yet connected in the oddest of ways. But right now, for once, I feel so comfortable being around them and I can feel that we're all being drawn closer. It's feeling more like a family right now and I seriously thank God so much. Maybe this was what he had intended when he tore my old cell leader away. I'd be lying if I say I don't think about her once in a while. I still miss her and I wish things were still the same but obviously not. Even when of my mates spotted her and we all decided to say 'Hi', it was just so awkward. She just didn't seem as excited as we are to see each other. I do get this nagging feeling that she's doing it so that we won't be so attached to her anymore. I think it's quite cruel honestly. But I think the event tomorrow has been called off either way because most of my mates still have exams going on.

On a not so holy note, Isabelle invited me to a party this Friday and 3/4 of my is dying to go and see what it's like and maybe have some harmless fun along the way. I haven't actually had a chance to unwind in quite a while. I don't know what relaxes me anymore. The other 1/4 of me is just flashing red lights and just telling me not to go because, well, I don't know to be honest. It's just a gut feeling. Either way, we'll see how.

I can't quite decide if I'm confident or if I'm awkward. I kind of float in the middle perhaps. I'd like to think I come off as confident to everyone yet not overbearing or cocky. Just plain confidence (which is highly attractive mind you, not saying that I'm highly attractive or anything). I feel confident around strangers most of the time. But there are times when I just feel totally awkward and I don't know what to do with myself or my hands or even what to say. I don't know if I'm supposed to initiate a conversation or shake a person's hand. This usually happens around guys maybe. Attractive guys makes it ten times worse. But then again, isn't this normal?

I tried tweaking my template earlier but being the dumb blonde, I failed miserably, gave up and reverted back to my sick old template. So sick of this template yet I don't quite know what I want or what to do with it.

Today was only the first day of Chinese Intensives and I was already dying at the 1st hour mark. God spare me.

This has been a very pointless and disconnected post.