I'm currently in school right now, sitting on the steps outside the lecture theatre with half of my course mates. I think we all know where this post is heading.

Let's split school into two components, actual school (lessons, lectures, workshops etc.) and the rest of the shit (mostly people-related shit). Actual school is fine. I love actual school. The lectures have been fairly interesting and even though it's only been 2 days into school, I've actually started studying whatever I can because I really want to understand whatever it is I need to. The rest of the shit on the other hand, has been horrible. I can't say that I haven't made friends because I have and they are pretty cool people but their not the people I'd usually hang out with. Also, I don't know if I'm being over-sensitive but I think people are already starting to get a wrong impression of me, therefore they are starting to dislike me. I am probably the most undiplomatic person ever. I'd like to think I usually carry myself pretty well, and I don't usually show a very horrible side of me to people I don't know very well. But for some reason this time, I'm just doing everything wrong and giving all sorts of wrong impression. It's quite horrible. At first I was a recluse. I just got so intimidated by all this new environment and all these people that I've just suddenly curled into a hermit. Then, I started to be a little more friendly, a little more like my usual self. But then I got too over-friendly. Now people think I'm a two-faced bitch and someone even called me a second Valerie. I don't fancy this Valerie girl much either. I seem to be going to extreme ends this time and it really sucks. I know it's impossible to have everyone to fancy me as a person because I'm obviously a pretty damned horrible person, but I don't want the people I fancy to not fancy me. They are probably the only people worth befriending here because the others seem to be...... a waste of my time, really.