I constantly think about what's going to happen to us. Are we gonna stay like this for a long while? Is everything going to fizzle out with time? Are we going to take a step ahead in the unknown, into the deep abyss where we might just get swallowed up by whatever is down there and perhaps it may destroy us? I don't know, I'm not asking for anything more. I'm happy with where we are now, actually. I'm just afraid, you'd change, you'd leave. Or that I'd change and I'd leave. But more that you'd forget everything. Especially since I'm going to be overseas for quite a bit this month and its the school holidays. We'd see less of each other, spend less time together.  Maybe whatever feelings that you had (if you do have any) may just disappear instantaneously and I won't mean anything to you anymore (if I ever did meant anything to you) and everything we had would just come to pass. When I come back, we'll just be nothing again. That scares me. I know I'm in no place to be thinking all these thoughts, asking all these questions, demanding something I don't even have the right to demand for. I'm sorry I'm so insecured, but believe me, I can't help it because if I could help it, I would. If I could stop thinking about all these and enjoy what we have now, I would. If I could treat this lightly, I would. But I can't because it is the very core of my being that you're getting into and my walls aren't very resistant. What started out as something so simple, something that I thought would just come to pass as all of my past feelings have, is turning into something, something I can't put a word to. I've tried my utmost to prevent this fall, I've told (deceived, even) myself countless times, that this is all going to come to pass and its nothing important and that I'm just physically attracted to you and that you are nothing to me, nothing but a friend. Truth is, I'm falling reckless, headlessly for you. I'm scared as hell that you're going to hurt this fragile heart of mine, that it'll all end in some blissfully, painful insanity. There's a brick wall holding back, yet a juggernaut urges me forward and between them, I'm caught.

& I don't mind if we take our time
Cause I'm all yours if you're all mine