27th Sept '12
Friday, September 28, 2012 12:36:00 AM
This is the very first time we're going out together, just the two of us. I was really over the moon when we agreed to go out. Then other factors came into play and that joy soon turned into worries, confusing and frustration. That, slowly developed into bitterness and a little dose of anger. But I could never stay angry at you for long, could I? Thursday soon came and I was still very much confused and worried when I woke up. But as the hour drew near, it morphed into a bundle of nerves and butterflies started flitting in the pits of my stomach. I know how absolutely moronic and unnecessary all of this sounds, but I couldn't help it, could I?
Things were pretty strange at first. Awkward would be too strong of a word to use, but it was something along those lines. I'm really thankful that we could carry on a decent conversation though. Sure, there were little bouts of slightly uncomfortable silences and we were most avoiding each others gazes, but it was nice in its own little strange ways.
I knew I had to find some traces of answers to have a peace of mind, and so I tried. I swear, we were the two most awkward people at that very moment. I didn't really find what I needed because you didn't really give me much to begin with. I guess whatever little you provided is enough and I don't want to push you up against a wall. We went back into casual conversations, but this time around, it was comfortable. I wasn't thinking much. We were just talking like I would with any of my other friends. That was when I realised that, hey, we're carrying out a normal conversation like two friends would, like two strangers attempting to discover more about each other. It was nice.
You told me that you didn't want me to get too affected by you. Its nearly impossible for me, because while you may have a tight rein over your emotions, I don't. But I've learn to live and let live with it. I've unknowingly invested a part of my emotions into you, but I won't let my happiness depend solely on what you do or don't do. I'll keep the good vibes and let the bad vibes linger for a little while before I rid of them. You told me that you didn't want me to wait. Well, I'm not waiting for anything. If these feelings would fade eventually, then I'd be naturally gone, but for now, I'm here. I still don't know where we are, I still don't know what we're doing, I still don't know where were. But those 2 over hours spent with you makes me feel all fuzzy and warm inside. I can't say it made me happy, neither can I say it has given me joy. I don't quite now of a perfectly apt way to describe it, but its a good feeling. Here's to spending much more time together (I hope) and creating some good memories.
We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cause we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow
Things were pretty strange at first. Awkward would be too strong of a word to use, but it was something along those lines. I'm really thankful that we could carry on a decent conversation though. Sure, there were little bouts of slightly uncomfortable silences and we were most avoiding each others gazes, but it was nice in its own little strange ways.
I knew I had to find some traces of answers to have a peace of mind, and so I tried. I swear, we were the two most awkward people at that very moment. I didn't really find what I needed because you didn't really give me much to begin with. I guess whatever little you provided is enough and I don't want to push you up against a wall. We went back into casual conversations, but this time around, it was comfortable. I wasn't thinking much. We were just talking like I would with any of my other friends. That was when I realised that, hey, we're carrying out a normal conversation like two friends would, like two strangers attempting to discover more about each other. It was nice.
You told me that you didn't want me to get too affected by you. Its nearly impossible for me, because while you may have a tight rein over your emotions, I don't. But I've learn to live and let live with it. I've unknowingly invested a part of my emotions into you, but I won't let my happiness depend solely on what you do or don't do. I'll keep the good vibes and let the bad vibes linger for a little while before I rid of them. You told me that you didn't want me to wait. Well, I'm not waiting for anything. If these feelings would fade eventually, then I'd be naturally gone, but for now, I'm here. I still don't know where we are, I still don't know what we're doing, I still don't know where were. But those 2 over hours spent with you makes me feel all fuzzy and warm inside. I can't say it made me happy, neither can I say it has given me joy. I don't quite now of a perfectly apt way to describe it, but its a good feeling. Here's to spending much more time together (I hope) and creating some good memories.
We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cause we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow