Yesterday turned out more than I had expected it to be. For starters, I never saw it coming. You asking me out? That's unheard of. But hey, I ain't complaining. I thought I'd just tag along even thought I know I'd be totally useless there since you guys would be flying here and there on your boards. I guess you were enough reason for me to go along. It was a long journey to the East and the weather proved unfavourable. We ended up in Esplanade somehow. I was just rolling around stupidly while you guys flipped and tricked out. It was pretty cool actually, watching you do tricks and stuff. Quite attractive, actually. You taught M a simple trick and I decided to shamelessly poke my butt in and learn it as well. For the most part, it seemed pretty fun and cool, but a little part of me wanted to impress you as well. I want you to notice me. I mastered it quick enough to garner praises from you. That made my night. For you to look at me and smile and tell me that I'm doing it right; it makes me die a little inside. We soon made our way back and I persuaded (whined) you to take a longer route to company me, which you did because the train arrived first anyway. I sat opposite you, beside your friend. At times, I catch glimpses of you looking at me. When it was your stop, you waved bye and got off. I could've sworn you stole one last glance at me before you stepped off the train.

Yesterday got me thinking. I haven't had such a good night/day in ages. I haven't spent my time so well without the need for alcohol or high expenses. I don't quite know how to word this, but there are times when you can just spend a whole day doing something simple but having so much fun with it. It's the kind of fun I used to have with D back when she still lived just down the road. Ever since she left, I haven't had those times in a while, and I miss it. You can't have these simple fun times with just anyone. There has to be some chemistry or something between two people to do simple mundane stuff but still have fun with it. It's not something you come across often and I'm glad I found it with you. Perhaps you're not someone I would call out anytime just yet, like how I am with D, but I'm hoping one day I'll be able to do that. This is a step forward nonetheless, I'm happy.

Ever since the start of school up to yesterday, we never talked much or hung out much. I was so close to just throwing in the towel and walking away. I'm tired of waiting and giving myself false hopes. Furthermore, so much has happened recently, with D and all. It made me so unsure of everything. I was almost sure with a little more time, I would have given up and got over you in just a snap of my fingers. But yesterday happened. When I'm around you, everything just feels so simple and alright. When I look at you, a smile instantaneously forms on my face. Yesterday reminded me of all the reasons why I'm feeling this way in the first place. Maybe yesterday was just a coincidence. Maybe all I've mentioned above is just me giving myself false hopes again. But I really like you, I really do. 

Labels: Life, Thoughts