I've been keeping the last 3 posts in my drafts, unsure as to whether I wanted to post it. There was just something holding me back, something telling me that those weren't good enough to be read, that those were the darkest secrets that no one would bother about.

I've finally figured things out with myself. I think after what happened with Lala, it really changed me a lot on the inside; I just never knew it had such a great impact on me. I was just walking home the other night with a heavy heart - and it hit me. It dawned upon me why I was feeling so confused and disorientated for the past 9 months. With that realisation, words started to flow out like honey out of a jar again; smooth and unhesitatingly. I think I've really finally let go and I'm really going to take a step forward in life now. I'd like to believe that God had revealed this to me in the most unexpected of times and I'm extremely thankful for it. I've finally been able to start studying with an aim again, which is a great thing because being without motivation sucked so much and I guess I'm pretty much ok and contented with life right now.

On a sidenote, I'm addicted to soy green tea latte, everyone should try it and change their lives for the better.

*I've only my 2012 post left in my drafts now, maybe I'll finish it, maybe I won't, we'll see.

Labels: Life, Thoughts